Fifty pages on the dot.

The first draft of Ko's World the screenplay is all written up now. 50 pages. I'm happy with that. :)

So. My next step is to expand on the story. The story so far is what I was able to write in the (in my opinion) very small timeframe that I had last year for my assignment. As I have soooo much more time now, I'll be able to expand on it, and hopefully get it up to at least 90 pages. I have a few ideas. One of them includes having the story swing so we follow Joe as he hunts down Ko yet again for kidnapping reasons. I'll have to figure out how to incorporate that into the mystical and magical, imaginative theme of the story, though, if I do go with it. But there's plenty in the story already that can expanded upon. Scenes that need rewriting and all that jazz.

I suppose another thing I need to do is research what people actually do with scripts. Like, where do they take them and that sort of thing XD Aye yai.

If anyone wants to read over my first draft (aka the shitty version), drop me an email at captainraison@yahoo.co.nz, or just, y'know, message me on the ol' facebook if you actually know me in real life, heh heh.

2016 is a new world

Hello beautiful readers. Don't think I've forgotten about you. Because I haven't, and I very much love you, all of you. The very few who may remember to read this blog, the ones who stumble across it out of nowhere, and the ones that have come and found this from the future. Thanks for stopping by. Patrick, I wonder if you look up your old students' blogs. I do miss SIT..

This blog is probably going to be one of those "update blogs" because it's really only been a few months since the end of my last semester. So yes. I've moved back home and am living with my parents, for now. I'm currently sitting in our sleep-out of which I've kind of stolen and made it my "workspace". By workspace I mean I've stuck my TV in it and I bring my laptop out here when I want to do stuff in the peace and quiet. It gets a bit too warm during the day, but it has a desk, so I suppose that's something.

I'm still planning to move to Wellington, to be closer to the creative and cultural folk and atmosphere there. It might help me, for reasons I'll explain later on. To start with, if things go well, I'll move in with my aunt. I've mentioned before, and people would have probably realised, I'm terribly shy around people I don't know. So, the plan is, get to know some people in Wellington OR wait for people I know from SIT to move to Wellington (I know there's at least four of you that have expressed the idea of moving there... e_e), and then totally hint at them about being flatmates and then move in with them. So yes. That's my grand plan for Wellington. I'll find a job, and filmie stuff, and I will have FUN and I will be HAPPY.

Slowly but Surely I've been adapting the story of Ko's World into a screenplay. There's about 27 pages in it so far, and it's not all written up yet. So that's been happening. I've been a bit off the grid for a couple of months, because summer holidays and people go away and do stuff. I've been away with my family for some of it, and then away with a friend for more some of it. Just exploring New Zealand, really.

Although, my self confidence and motivation for anything has taken a dive again. When I had assignment deadlines and the like, I would do stuff for that, but now I'm free to do what ever I want. But it's strange. I want to finish writing Ko's World. I want to write more episodes for Cat Kids. And I want to write more Chino stories and turn them into comics, even though I'm really not that good at drawing. But there are voices inside my brain that tell me that I'm not good enough for anything, so why should I even bother? It drives me insane, and it just makes me feel really, really sad. I'm forcing myself to write these things, by doing a little bit each evening. Hopefully I can get into a routine where this will come naturally to me again. I need a bit of routine in my life, otherwise my brain hurts.

Bye for now, peeps.

My final week.

So. I'm nearing my days here at SIT. This is a strange feeling.

This past week I've had my photography journal due, and now I'm currently working on my last ever assignment. Promo stuff for Ko's World and myself.

My hard drive broke at some point on Friday, which has all of my files for 2013 and 2014, and some of 2015. Great. The week before semester ends. Thanks, hard drive. It's not like I needed those files for an assignment or anything :I

But yeah, not much to report on apart from the promo and career development stuff. I'm doing that.

Not too sure what I'm supposed to write about in my action plan. I mean like, yeah I know what I want to be doing, but jeez, I just want to chill for a month or so first. I don't plan to move and jump straight into the industry the week after semester ends. That's impossible. Sheesh. I need to raise some money for that first, so I can move out of home. Also, my trailer is a trailer. I don't plan to submit it to festivals. My plan is to expand on the story. That's what I want to do with it. And then send it to companies or whatever you do with scripts. I feel this is too ambitious though, for what Patrick wants of us. It doesn't align with my action plan so much.

Bloggity

Blog? Blog?? What do I blog about?

This week I handed in Ko's World, the trailer. And now, I am working on my showreel. This blog is going to get an awful mark, because I really can't remember what happened. It's just.... gone from my brain for some reason XD. Oh well. I remember the emotion of it all though, and I'm pretty sure I experienced nearly all emotions that I possibly could in the few hours before hand in.

But here's a pretty picture I took.

I feel as though my passion for photography has grown over the past year, and I really love it. I mean, I loved it before, but after actually studying it for a year, and actually having tasks to take photos of, it seems to have developed inside myself into something more than what it was. I'm entering Canon's Eyecon competition this year. It's a film and photography competition for students. I've been wanting to enter since I started at SIT, but I was never happy with the standard of how my films turned out. But this year, seeing as I'm also a photography student, I'm eligible to enter eyecon as a photographer. So that is what I am going to do.

But yeah, after I handed my trailer in, I went and ate pancakes from McD's, because I deserve it, and I ate them furiously, because it makes sense in my head. I am ecstatic with my trailer. I love it to bits. I am actually proud of what I have made. Yeah, the sound and colour grade could have been a hell of a lot better, but my main focuses for the project were the story, cinematography, and the pacing of the trailer, which I achieved to how I wanted it to be. I think it's beautiful..

I should probably disappear before I get all sappy and shit, and start likening it to a love that's not quite there.

What? I didn't say anything.

Getting work done, yo!! A week of multiple things going wrong.

Blog tiimmme. Hi guys, it's Wednesday.

Let's see now, what have I been up to. I found my location release form that had gone missing. I found this really neat song track works with my trailer really well. The first part of it, at least. Well see what happens with the 2nd part. Colour grading and sound edit are still to come. Da Vinci Resolve, I now think I'm comfortable with. Pro tools?? I can't remember when I last used that. I don't think I've actually been taught how to properly edit sound on it. No, actually, I haven't. The audio class we took was more like making music and sound effects etc, and learning about recording foley and adr. So. I don't really know why we have to use that software when we haven't really been shown what we have to use it for. Ah. YouTube tutorials might have to help. But anyway. I have a draft of my photography book. The final is due the day after my film trailer is due. So fun times.

I hate trumpets. In the song track, there is a trumpet. BUUUUT the music licence for it says I can alter it and what not, and I do have the individual instrument tracks for it, soooooooo, bye bye trumpets >:)

So yah, I had a wee play around in Pro Tools, taking out various instruments that I didn't like, and keep the ones that I did like. It ended up pretty neat.


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Saturday today. Let's see, what have I been up to. Editing.

Da Vinci Resolve decided to not work for me the first time I imported my project. Basically, the same problem it was having last year. Ughhhh. But, it came to my attention, via Patrick and certain clips on the timeline, that it might actually have something to do with the subclips. Da Vinci Resolve does not like subclips. I went back into Premiere and replaced the subclips with the original video tracks, and just trimmed them to match what I had. Imported that into Resolve, and hey presto, it freaking worked. Now, if I had known that was the way to fix it, I would have had Cat Kids finished on time. I'm freaking pissed. Ughh.


But anyway, yesterday was dedicated to Da Vinci Resolve, and the things that come with that. All my footage is mostly correctly white balanced, it's just exposure that needs tinkering around with.

Apart from this one particular blimmin' clip of the character Joe.

It still looks weird, doesn't it? I can't frikken get the colour levels to align properly so that they don't look odd. Frustrating.

I'm not an expert at colour editing, but I'm pretty sure it's not meant to look like this. And I can't get that red to stop being such a hog.

But anyway. Apart from that, I think I'm nearly done with exposure and colour correctly. Now to decide if I want to apply any sort of colour grade, to make it look all fancy and cinematic and what not.

So I guess sound edit is to come after that.

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What's animator been up to with my fairy? They've been busy doing animator stuff with it, grizzling about it all the way. 

It looks technical. I get told of things that are happening with it, but really, I have no idea what is going on XD

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I spent a bit more time tinkering around with that clip in Resolve, this is what I got

It does look a wee bit better than what it was before (below)

I r colour edit pro nao

Weee don't get him grumpeh

Why do we have to make our final 1920x1080 when I shot in 2k?

Eh..

Ok it's evening now. Lots of progress has been made thus far. Kyle came in and gave us a few pointers in Protools, which was great. 

And animator is apparently done. The animation only took about 20 minutes to render XD

So that thing is apparently in my trailer. Haha, I'm pretty stoked that it was made. It's so cute and flowery and omg it moves and flaps its wings and it's so cool and look at its little face and its wee mouth and omg it bliiinnnnkssss

But something I'd like to see is at the start when it flies in, is it being a bit blurry, so it matches with the shallow focusing of the clip. But that's a job for tomorrow.

Yayyyy. I owe them chocolate.

Sundayyyy. I don't know how to edit audio in Pro Tools. All the tutorials online are for songssss

And I am CRYING because freaking out about things wahhh

Sunday night. I got some peeps to draw on my frames. You'll see what I mean when you watch the final, lol

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Modaayyy SHIT UGH THIS BLOG WAS DUE THIS MORNING Freaking hell, the public holiday today got me all confused and I thought it was still the weekend. :I

But anyway. There were some corrupted frames with the animation when I went to go stick the blur on the animation in its Premiere file. That is what I was majorly freaking out about yesterday. But it's all good now. Tarri came in and fixed it, yayyy. So all that just for getting it to be blurry, which only took about 1 minute for that to be applied :/

So now it looks like it is part of the environment.

Also what's been happening is I've been getting a bunch of people to draw on my frames, for a different part of the trailer. When Adult Ko transitions to Child Ko, to make it look all cool and magic and transitiony, I'm applying the technique that was used in the Skrillex/Diplo music video with Justin Bieber

So far there's been myself, Josh, Lee and Corey who've done so. It's looking pretty neat.

 

 

There's about another 40 odd frames to draw on. I asked some internet peeps. If you're reading this and want to draw on it, I'm in the MacLab. Like literally. I live there.

Right. Posting blog, and then carrying on.

Peace out, home skillet biscuits. My mum thinks you're all neat.

6 sugars, please

I'd like to order a strong cup of motivation, please.

I'm going to be as honest as I've ever been on these blogs. This whole semester has been a huge struggle to find the motivation to do anything. Shit happening in my personal life in regards to my living situation really brought me down at the start of it, and I really haven't managed to get back at all. I thought I did, but ehh, not so much. I don't find joy in anything I used to find interesting anymore, even things outside of SIT. And I feel as though I always have to be doing something. Such conflict... It bothers me if I'm left without anything to do for even a few seconds. That never used to cause me much annoyance. Back in the day I'd quite happily take a few hours to just chill. Now, I can't be left without something to do. BUT where the confusion comes in, is the fact that I don't find anything I end up doing, entertaining. I slide from one task to the other, and most of it is nowhere near what I'm meant to be doing. I... guess I feel ashamed to do anything that interests me, if it would. I don't know why I'm like that. I really just want the year to be over so I can go home and hang out with my cat in the North Island sun. Another thing causing me concern is the fact that I really have no idea where I'm going after this course. Of course, I have connections down here in the South, but I miss my family immensely, and I hate being so far isolated from them. Imagine not being able to see your mum or dad or siblings or spouse or kids for years at a time. It's just yourself, and there's noone there to go home to in the evening. There's noone around to have experiences with, and loneliness greets you like a lover the moment you step into the empty living room. Silence presses against your ears. You try to drown it out with music, but it'll always be there. It never leaves, so you resign to becoming a victim of the silence. And a victim of the silence, I now realise, I have become. 

Where is the creative motivation that drove me, once upon a time? 

Yeah, I know, I'm not supposed to write blogs like this, but it relates to my course in the way that all my projects have taken the toll with this. I'm not proud. I don't feel as though I've done as much editing as I should have by now. I keep mucking around with it, like a cat playing with its catch. Batting it around this way and that. I don't like it. I cannot see a way in which the trailer is going to work. As of this moment in time, I fear that it is under the minimum time, by a few seconds, yes, but these things cannot be swept aside with a "she'll be right" attitude. The whole thing does not make sense. It's just bits of a story that don't fit together. Even the story, I don't believe is anything decent. It needs work. My dream is to write for a living. But if I don't have the motivation to work upon my written things, then how am I going to get anywhere? Photography has been left behind. I mentioned the project due. I really don't want to go out and take photos for it. I have about 5. We're making a book of them. I need maybe about 5 to 15 more. The theme is place, and how different perspectives affect the way places are looked at, told through refraction and reflection. This is my kitchen, through a glass. An example.

I also have a presentation to give, this Friday, about my internship experiences. That's going to be easy enough. I just need to create the slideshow.

I was on the radio today. I'm using my time on the show as my personal development hours. I need to get it signed off, though, if I want them to actually be seen as part of PD hours. I guess I'll have to find a time to go see mr manager and talk to him about it. I haven't seen him in months.


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I'm not going to get anything done, if I don't get out and do it.
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Friday evening. Raining. I'm in the MacLab. Believe it or not, today and yesterday, I was a good girl, and actually did some course stuff!! YAY GOOD GIRL, KIMBERLEY.

Yesterday I wandered around with a glass full of water. I went to the park, and took project photos. I got some neat stuff!!!

After that I kidnapped Brentarri and went to the beach. Again, I got some neat photos for my project

Ahmmm. On the way there.. My car kind of got stuck in the sand... O_O well that's going to be a memory forever. We dug out the sand from under it, and then some helpful stranger came along and pulled my car out of the sand. There was even a lol made from the whole adventure

Today, I edited my chosen photos that will be definitely going into my photography project. I may have also got a bit side tracked at some point and made other stuff. 

Like this photomontage

Crazy upside down world of his mind

And this.... This.

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I do apologise for this blog being a few hours late. By the time we wrapped on Callum's shoot last night, SIT was well and truly closed for the day. And I couldn't get into campus any earlier today. (monday)

Saturday and Sunday was dedicated to Callum's shoot. It's going well. Weather isn't helping, though.

Start of term END OF MY DEGREE OH MY GOD I'M NOT READY, BE GENTLE

Photography. Fuck.

It's due in two weeks. The project. Oh my god. Shit



But in other news, I've started editing my film.


Kind of.

So today, being Thursday now, I went out a took some photos for a photographer research thing. I'm really slack at doing them, but if I don't do something, it's never going to get done. Here's a pic of a lady trying to cross the road. Street photography was the topic, Joel Meyerowitz was the photographer in research. Not this photo, though. I took this photo. I still think I prefer to take other types of photos. But there are some really neat street photographers. I really like Vivian Maier's work. She has a neat story.

Also today animator did some animating stuff for the flower fairies in my film project, of which I need to get round to properly starting to edit.

I have no idea what is going on here. Animator stuff.

So yeah the film project is due on the 27th of October. 

Today being Sunday, I am a miserable procrastinator, god damn, someone just give me chocolate and snugs. I am editing because I am grump grump at having to edit. It makes sense in my brain.